There\'s something on my Mind......get off...
Once upon a time ... far far away... in another State...A woman told me that when the chips were down go buy ya self something ... I don't remember just what was what...seems like she and her hubby were stationed in Germany... and they had been exchanging colorful medafurs... so any how she took their last 300 dollars and went shoppin....yepp she said she felt way better...hubby wasn't happy cause now they aint got no rent money...Okay guess I missed the point...Sides that's another story any who..........So as it's been a heck of a month...Pain in my back is some better... long as I don't walk, clean, are do anything...Then I hurt cause I'm not active...so dang... can't win fur loosin... rite...?.......I know I'm suppose to tuff it out.... hang in there...is the rope gonna hold... is it long enuff....FRAID KNOT...All my life since I found myself on the wrong side of the shed house...I've been tryin to find the my place with the rest of the tools in the shed..Well folks this tool shed was a mess...So I spent years arrangein the tools, ... a place for everything and ...everything in it's place... wanted to set a good example fur my kids ya know...I got err done... yeppers... (proudly patted me self on my back)I was happier than a tornado in a trailer park ... .......then the ex she goes and kicks me to the curb...and the tool shed it a mess once again..and I sit here this moanin... 3 am...I just don't seem to fit in anywhere... awee haill... I've never really fit in all my life...So there's someting on my mind.........having lived through seven years of brutal beatings...neglect, and verbal abuse... I was dumped into society...wasn't long before I realised... I aint the sharpest tool in this shed..I've been proud of myself for ending the abuse... Nope aint gonna beat on no kiddo... just aint rite..My oldest son he had me arressted for child abuse once...boy was he mad at dad...turns out he was being thrown in a dumpster everyday at schoolthat aint why he's mad at dad... i grounded him for something can't even remember...any old way... the child protection agency that investigated well they, like gave me kudos.. yepp... told me I was a great dad...and that these scrapps and bruises on my son were from a bullytossin his skinny hinny in a dumpster at school...too dang bad they didn't come to my hearing.. I was arrested for assult and battery... cause hey... it was child abuse month..they had to make an example outta me... someting to do with votes for the DA,...cheep huh...oh well... .......So I spent the last two weeks in such pain... I'd pee on myself when I moved...yepp.. sad aint it...guess that makes me a real dripp...don't worry if ya don't get it the doctor didn't either.. and hey he's suppose to be eddumcated right...nawe I don't put much stock in this Doc... He don't listen to me... real sad part is he might just be right ...bout them kidneys in all...but hey I went and got me some NOSAIDS...motrin over the counter for the inflamed disc.......dang house is a mess... dishes need washed... clothes need to be washed...I'm kinda leanin towards weenin myself off these meds...and lettin Nature take it's Course...toss that idea at my son... the oldest one.. he just looked at me like...then ask if he can borrow the van....to top all of it off... these pain meds.. and the meds I already be takin..they make me break out in a rash under my arms... any place the sun don't shine are don't get lots of fresh air...it aint ezackly like I can shower every day eater... that is a problem I hate with a passion... I like being clean...just aint got the getty up to get it done...try standin down wind of youself ... no ..no the other way... geeeesh... WATZ that Smell...........be glad when summer gets here... i can play in the water hose ...Iffins i still gotta place to live ....I guess the long of it is ...I don't know what to do with myself these days...so I guess I just go do the dishes... an see if I can talk that kid into loadin the washer...Oh yea I went out an blew twenty four dollar on my sorry ask self...four movies... dvd's....COOL HUH........tumblin along with the tumble weed... russ
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So glad to hear that you are getting a bit better. Hope you enjoy your movies. I\'ll bet you got comedies!
Have a great week, and get the dishes done!
What movies did you get Russ? thinking of you as always........dale xo