Therapy Tonight

I couldn't finish my first journal entry because of arising anxiety, but I do have an appointment with my therapist later tonight and I'm really hoping to feel better once I walk out the door. I haven't been in his office in about a month. I was so depressed that I didn't want to go. I admit it and know that's not the right thing to do. But after our first session, I had a great 2 weeks where I didn't think about the affair one bit! Then after the second (last time), I spent the next 3-4 weeks in complete agony, misery, and depression over everything my husband did to me. I think that deterred me from making another appointment. But I'm proud to say I'm not canceling tonight! I'll write how it went later.