Therapy Tomorrow
Today was good- I made it to the gym for the first time in almost a year. I only spent 15 minutes on the bike, but between walking there and back it turned out to be over the 25 minutes I wanted to spend exercising today. Tomorrow I have therapy, and I will see how it goes. I'm excited- I haven't seen her in almost a year and I am going to try and focus on the following things:
1. Geo and my relationship. She has met Geo, so she knows a bit about him. I want an outside opinion on what she thinks I should do.
2. How to recognize my emotions and the emotions of others. To learn how to not take everything at face value and see nuances in things.
3. Coping skills and dealing with stress. I need to learn how to get rid of my stress before it gets to be too bad and I'm hurting physically and mentally.
I think those 3 things should be my main focus right now. Geo has made comments (like saying I'm going to be around for his birthday in late October) that make me think he wants to stay together. I will talk to him tomorrow after therapy maybe and see what he thinks. I don't want him to make a decision yet- I know I'm still up in the air. I know I don't feel respected by him sometimes, but at the same time when I look back, I have treated him disrespectfully as well. So it's just trying to figure us out. I love him, and I want us to work... so it's just making us work with what we have.
Food: Today I messed up on food. Geo had ordered a pizza last night, and I had it for breakfast, thinking I would have my oatmeal for lunch. Well, I had the 2 pieces of pizza, went to the gym a little later, and then took a 4 hour nap! I slept right through lunch. I had a Fiber One bar for a snack, and then had my one chicken thigh with some potatoes for dinner, and I'm about to eat the other chicken thigh and a bit more potatoes in a couple minutes to take with my pills.
Sleep: Last night I slept from 11pm to 10am, plus a 4 hour nap. I guess I was really tired from all that traveling! Mood is okay, since I have a bit of a sore throat and slept a lot, which could mean depression.
Tomorrow's schedule:
8:45am- wake up, eat breakfast
11am- appointment with therapist
Come home, go to the gym and nap if needed.
3pm- go grocery shopping
Regular night- cook at 6:15, eat at 7, go to sleep by midnight.
1. Geo and my relationship. She has met Geo, so she knows a bit about him. I want an outside opinion on what she thinks I should do.
2. How to recognize my emotions and the emotions of others. To learn how to not take everything at face value and see nuances in things.
3. Coping skills and dealing with stress. I need to learn how to get rid of my stress before it gets to be too bad and I'm hurting physically and mentally.
I think those 3 things should be my main focus right now. Geo has made comments (like saying I'm going to be around for his birthday in late October) that make me think he wants to stay together. I will talk to him tomorrow after therapy maybe and see what he thinks. I don't want him to make a decision yet- I know I'm still up in the air. I know I don't feel respected by him sometimes, but at the same time when I look back, I have treated him disrespectfully as well. So it's just trying to figure us out. I love him, and I want us to work... so it's just making us work with what we have.
Food: Today I messed up on food. Geo had ordered a pizza last night, and I had it for breakfast, thinking I would have my oatmeal for lunch. Well, I had the 2 pieces of pizza, went to the gym a little later, and then took a 4 hour nap! I slept right through lunch. I had a Fiber One bar for a snack, and then had my one chicken thigh with some potatoes for dinner, and I'm about to eat the other chicken thigh and a bit more potatoes in a couple minutes to take with my pills.
Sleep: Last night I slept from 11pm to 10am, plus a 4 hour nap. I guess I was really tired from all that traveling! Mood is okay, since I have a bit of a sore throat and slept a lot, which could mean depression.
Tomorrow's schedule:
8:45am- wake up, eat breakfast
11am- appointment with therapist
Come home, go to the gym and nap if needed.
3pm- go grocery shopping
Regular night- cook at 6:15, eat at 7, go to sleep by midnight.
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