Then things get worse

I hadn't had time to write a journal entry lately but I had another bad experience with men. I know that I am really not supposed to be doing anything really drastic in my life like a relationship since I am in the early stages of recovering from drugs but I thought that over six months was ok. I really liked this guy and I thought there was something. He did things for me and cared. However, we only known eachother 2 months. We slept together and he has completely abandoned me. I do not understand why this happens. And I really don't get why me. I am so upset right now i do not know what to do. It happened days ago but it still really hurts and is starting to mess up my recovery.