The Whirlwind
It is always interesting when the one person you love decides to blame you for their own thoughtless decisions. Sure I do know that I have some blame for her beginning a emotional affair..not being home but working long hours and then being called out for an emergency because I am a volunteer fireman. But I tried to many times to get her involved but she didnt want to do that.
Its been 3 weeks now since she has abandoned me and 2 weeks since my daughter has been home. My daughter , at 4 years old, is suffering in this too and I cant express anything to her of why because this is her mother. All i can say is mommy loves you darling. talking about not being fair. yes I am venting. I feel like such a fool for not seeing this and/or accepting this 3 years ago when she told me she didnt love me anymore. I had hoped that after I did the things she asked me to do, her words were we would start over and try again.
And to look back and see that all this was lies. nothing she said or did was true.
Wow. What is it when all my whole life, the only thing I asked was for a wife who loved me like I loved her. You pour out your life and soul to them and it gets crushed under the heels of her feet.
Its been 3 weeks now since she has abandoned me and 2 weeks since my daughter has been home. My daughter , at 4 years old, is suffering in this too and I cant express anything to her of why because this is her mother. All i can say is mommy loves you darling. talking about not being fair. yes I am venting. I feel like such a fool for not seeing this and/or accepting this 3 years ago when she told me she didnt love me anymore. I had hoped that after I did the things she asked me to do, her words were we would start over and try again.
And to look back and see that all this was lies. nothing she said or did was true.
Wow. What is it when all my whole life, the only thing I asked was for a wife who loved me like I loved her. You pour out your life and soul to them and it gets crushed under the heels of her feet.
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