The Universe Has Made My Decision
Yesterday I received a "rejection letter" in the mail for a part-time job I had applied for. This is the third part-time position that I've been rejected for in the past 4 months. When I first moved to the tiny town of Joshua Tree from the City of San Diego in July 2010, I had applied for a part-time position with Copper Mountain College in their payroll department. The job looked excellent on paper with many attributes: fairly decent pay for this remote area; pro-rated benefits; pension plan membership; 15 paid holidays; 6-mile commute; and 20 hours per week with a flexible schedule. Unfortunately, the job was a complete STRESSFEST! My Fibro and IBS symptoms were at an all-time high during the short 5 months I was in the position. I lasted only from mid-August to mid-January and had to resign in the name of my health and my sanity.
I have struggled over the past year about the fact that I gave up a really good job with the City of San Diego as a Personnel Analyst. I went back to school late in life to finish my bachelors degree so that I could finally get a professional career. I started as an unpaid intern and was hire as a full-time employee 9 months later. I loved the work I did and it was interesting and challenging. Upon moving to a remote town such as J-Tree, I found that my options were very few. The jobs that have been available to apply for all are mundane clerical positions. I realize I cannot be happy with those types of positions any longer because I've been stuck in dead-end jobs all my life! The reason I went back to school was to get away from those horrible clerical jobs. Why put myself back into that situation after I worked so hard?
Thankfully my husband is very supportive and has told me I don't need to work at all. This gives me far more leeway than if I were supporting myself. Therefore, I am going to continue to enjoy my freedom and be much more selective in trying to find work. It may take a long time to find the right situation, so in the meantime I plan on engaging in volunteer work. I think the bottom line is the Universe made the decision for me. :-) I had been very torn about this most recent position because deep down I had a feeling I'd be unhappy and stressed out. Part of me actually had hoped they would NOT hire me! So I guess I now have my answer.
I am going to try to let go of my fear of not having enough money. That will be my next task!
I have struggled over the past year about the fact that I gave up a really good job with the City of San Diego as a Personnel Analyst. I went back to school late in life to finish my bachelors degree so that I could finally get a professional career. I started as an unpaid intern and was hire as a full-time employee 9 months later. I loved the work I did and it was interesting and challenging. Upon moving to a remote town such as J-Tree, I found that my options were very few. The jobs that have been available to apply for all are mundane clerical positions. I realize I cannot be happy with those types of positions any longer because I've been stuck in dead-end jobs all my life! The reason I went back to school was to get away from those horrible clerical jobs. Why put myself back into that situation after I worked so hard?
Thankfully my husband is very supportive and has told me I don't need to work at all. This gives me far more leeway than if I were supporting myself. Therefore, I am going to continue to enjoy my freedom and be much more selective in trying to find work. It may take a long time to find the right situation, so in the meantime I plan on engaging in volunteer work. I think the bottom line is the Universe made the decision for me. :-) I had been very torn about this most recent position because deep down I had a feeling I'd be unhappy and stressed out. Part of me actually had hoped they would NOT hire me! So I guess I now have my answer.
I am going to try to let go of my fear of not having enough money. That will be my next task!
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