The truth has set me free!!
I never thought that I would have the courage to tell my husband about my gambling problem and the debt that I have accumulated. I have literally be in agony the last few weeks and I feel like I kept gambling because I was feeling so guilty and miserable. After another significant loss on Thursday I decided that I needed to just tell my husband everything and try to move forward. I decided that I needed to do this about noon on Friday and so I cancelled plans with a girlfriend and decided to meet my husband at home and just tell him everything. I believe that the good Lord had be prompting me for weeks to tell my husband the truth but I was trying to ignore that still, small voice because I didn't have the courage. I must say, once I had the courage and told my husband everything through uncontrollable sobs he did exactly what I would expect from the wonderful man I married....took me in his arms, told me he is sorry that I felt like I had to keep this struggle a secret from him, we made a plan to pay off all of the gambling debt in the next year and then he said "that is done, I forgive you, let's move on!!!" Wow, what a freedom, what an amazing feeling to not have this secret to keep, a secret that kept driving me back to the casino because of guilt and shame. I honestly feel like a new woman. Nothing has changed between my husband and I, we woke up the next morning and he kissed me like he always does and we spent a wonderful day with our families.
I finally feel like I can more forward with life and break free from this addiction because I have my husband to hold me accountable and I am no longer running from the truth! The truth as set me free!
So very Hopeful! :)
I finally feel like I can more forward with life and break free from this addiction because I have my husband to hold me accountable and I am no longer running from the truth! The truth as set me free!
So very Hopeful! :)
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