The truth at last!
Gosh, it's been awhile since I made an entry here. X-mas came and went and our communications was improving. Dad was dying, I wanted someone to talk to but he was nowhere and no wonder, he was too busy screwing his whore! I got some x-mas greetings and new years greetings and texts/emails in between. But I knew there was something wrong.
After the typhoon in November, I pleaded with our manager to give me leave, and he did. I made it back to the Philippines in Feb 15, we were supposed to have dinner, he did not feel like going. Feb 16 he was supposed to accompany me shopping, again he did not feel like going. While I was out, his whore came because he was not answering her texts and phone calls. He told her I was staying at the hotel also, but that I was out. She stormed off. That evening, we were supposed to go to dinner, but again he did not feel like it. By then I felt like he was avoiding me but let it go. We talked on the phone after I got back from shopping and that was when he told me his whore had been to try and see him, likely hoping for money. I then asked him "how could she jsut march into the hotel and why did the guards did not stopped her?". He replied "oh the guards are friends of hers, she used to come and use the wifi". Another fucking lie as I found out later. I did not buy his story of course but did not make any comments.
Monday, Feb 17 I had an appointment with my dentist at 1PM and he had an appointment with his neurologist at 2:30. I told him I should be finished before by 2 and I could accompany him to the Neuro Doc. He texted me at 2PM on the dot, I told him I was on my way. I got to my hotel room (separate from his) and waited. Texted him. I got a reply that he was on his way to the Neuro Doc. I was furious! I was ropeable! I returned to the shopping place to try and calm myself. But I could not concentrate. I returned to the hotel room at 6pm, went got my tablet and went to the wifi area. I checked and replied to emails for 2 hours until I got hungry and decided I'd go get something to eat. I got into the shower when the phone rang, I answered it and it was him, he said where have I been? I told him I'd been in the wifi area. He told me he'd been ringing my room and the reception to check of my whereabouts. Stupid receptionists they told him they have not seen me when I was just right behind them!
That evening, we finally managed to have dinner since my return. He behaved as if nothing happened. Next day we bought his 3rd Jeep, a collector's item WWII military style. We drove it to my brother's place. We got there by noon. Not long after that, his phone rang. He answered it and walked out of earshot. I did not liked it at all, my suspicion heightened. When he came back, he said "she asked why I did not say good-bye". I said "how did she know we'd gone?" He said she must have spies at the hotel.
So the next 3 weeks whenever we had dinner his phone will get interrupted with texts messages from her and he'd reply to this without telling me who it was. My stomach started to feel as if it has a permanent knot. Then my sister in law told me she thinks he took her to his bed, shared a bed with her and likely had relationship with her because he bought 2 pillows because apparently they fought over pillows! I felt I'd been kicked in the gut!
Following evening, we had dinner with my brother and his wife. They both got drunk. Bro and SIL went home and I stayed with my asshole. He was drunk, started telling me he loved me, that his biggest regrets was not having married and had children. I told him "if you'd been married you'd be divorced by now and supporting God knows how many kids". He then started telling me how he loved this other girl too but it's a different kind of love, that if he wants to have children and I won't oblige he would do it with her because she is like me in a lot of ways. I then told him "she is not me, she will never be like me! I for one never accepts money from men not related to me by blood or marriage! And 2nd, I never pursue men! I have more class and dignity than that! How dare you compare her to me?". He tried telling me he only gave her money for taxis. Another lie. I busted him by saying and books for her course, and tuition fees? He was busted. He then tried saying "the books weren't not much". The asshole just could not stop lying! Why the hell for I don't know! So I told him "books costs thousands of pesos!". He realized he was busted and did not say anything anymore. And that was the end of our dinner.
He saw me off in Manila to catch my flight back to Oz. But he was not the same. He was colder, distracted. On the way to Manila, his whore texted him asking of his whereabouts. He told her that he was on a plane to Manila but did not tell her he was with me. Again I did not make any comments. We enjoyed the first night in Manila prior to my departure next day. But 2nd night we started talking about the other woman. It was evident to me then that he was smitten, infatuated. Bearing in mind that this was a woman young enough to be his daughter. I started to get sullen. The asshole noticed but I told him I was just thinking of work. Why I did not confront him at the time? Coz up until then he kept denying there was no one else.
So fast forward a month after I got back to Oz, called me yesterday. I asked him how he was and he said not good. I said "what is the matter?". Before he replied, he asked me to promise him that I will never abandon him, that I will stand by him no matter what. I felt that familiar knot in the stomach. I said I will. He won't say it, so I said "Is...pregnant?". Long silence and he finally said "yes". It feels like my world collapsed on me.
I tore stips onto him. I swear if he'd been in front of me I would have hit him. I asked him "how could you? So all those denials and you've been lying all along!". All I got was "I'm sorry". I asked him how far she was and he said "one month and one week". So they did it a week just before I got there! I could have killed him! I asked "when did this start?". "dunno, uh, can't remember. I broke it off last December but she was crying and begging me to take her back". I told him "and you're stupid enough to take her back".
She is pressuring him to marry her. I told him "of course she is because she's had this planned all along as far back as October! She was telling her relatives (heard this from the maid) how she and her family will make it to the US via you! If you don't believe me, ask Sarah (the maid), ask Linda (the laundry lady)". I told him "this was an entrapment planned for you and you walked right into it! We discussed this for 4 years that these women are conniving, scheming manipulative sluts to get into your country! But you did not listen! Now you will pay big time!". He started telling me that it might be possible that she was in loved with him. I told him "duh! If you give me money for my books, taxis, tuition fees and goodness knows what I'd tell you I loved you too!". He could not reply to this.
He then asked me what he should do. I said "go down south, I'll book you a hotel there and I'll join you next month". He said "I can't abandon my baby". I said "If this child is yours!". He replied "I know it's mine because she's not that kind of girl" trying to tell me she's not a whore. I then told him "get real! Would a decent girl hotly pursue a man she's barely known? Would a decent girl would voluntarily go to a foreign man's hotel room in an attempt to seduce him, then ask him to marry her when she's barely known him?". Again, he had nothing to say to this.
By then he was in tears asking me to help him, say something that will make him feel better. I told him "it's early days, she might miscarry yet. Ask her to have an abortion". He said "she won't because she wanted the baby". I said "of course she wanted a fucking child from you or any foreigner for that matter because the child will bring in a guaranteed income in the next 18 years!" He then asked if there are child support laws there. I said I don't think so. I was wrong. I looked it up later and my lying asshole is in deeper shit than he is now. But he does not know this yet.
I told him you don't have to abandon the child, but you need to ditched the mother if you don't want marriage. I told him to change his SIM card, but again, he wanted to keep in touch with her re-the baby. I told him, "is it really the baby you're concerned about or her fresh young ass?". He said the baby. I told him "get used to the idea of not seeing this child because at your age and your various illnesses, you might not even see this child start primary school!". I told him that I knew he'd been lying all along, that he was colder, distant. Again he tried to deny this, that he's the same man that I knew in the last 5 years. I told him to stop lying.
They were supposed to meet yesterday to tell her no marriage, no cohabitation and no commitment. But he is piss-weak, I doubt whether he had the balls to say these things to the fucking gold digger. I have not heard since. He's supposed to text me when he gets back up North. The more I think about it, the more I'm thinking I'm going to ditch him and told him so yesterday. He begged me not to. I've been thinking about this situation since yesterday, could not sleep last night had to take sleepers, felt so tense this morning, had to go for along walk. Really the best thing for me to do is to cut him loose. He has lied to me all along. A man who can not tell the truth can not be trusted. As for pain, I have not cried at all. Sure I was hurt, but I guess my feelings and emotions have been battered so much in a space of 5 months, it is exhausted. I can't fight anymore and he is not worth fighting for. I need to heal!
After the typhoon in November, I pleaded with our manager to give me leave, and he did. I made it back to the Philippines in Feb 15, we were supposed to have dinner, he did not feel like going. Feb 16 he was supposed to accompany me shopping, again he did not feel like going. While I was out, his whore came because he was not answering her texts and phone calls. He told her I was staying at the hotel also, but that I was out. She stormed off. That evening, we were supposed to go to dinner, but again he did not feel like it. By then I felt like he was avoiding me but let it go. We talked on the phone after I got back from shopping and that was when he told me his whore had been to try and see him, likely hoping for money. I then asked him "how could she jsut march into the hotel and why did the guards did not stopped her?". He replied "oh the guards are friends of hers, she used to come and use the wifi". Another fucking lie as I found out later. I did not buy his story of course but did not make any comments.
Monday, Feb 17 I had an appointment with my dentist at 1PM and he had an appointment with his neurologist at 2:30. I told him I should be finished before by 2 and I could accompany him to the Neuro Doc. He texted me at 2PM on the dot, I told him I was on my way. I got to my hotel room (separate from his) and waited. Texted him. I got a reply that he was on his way to the Neuro Doc. I was furious! I was ropeable! I returned to the shopping place to try and calm myself. But I could not concentrate. I returned to the hotel room at 6pm, went got my tablet and went to the wifi area. I checked and replied to emails for 2 hours until I got hungry and decided I'd go get something to eat. I got into the shower when the phone rang, I answered it and it was him, he said where have I been? I told him I'd been in the wifi area. He told me he'd been ringing my room and the reception to check of my whereabouts. Stupid receptionists they told him they have not seen me when I was just right behind them!
That evening, we finally managed to have dinner since my return. He behaved as if nothing happened. Next day we bought his 3rd Jeep, a collector's item WWII military style. We drove it to my brother's place. We got there by noon. Not long after that, his phone rang. He answered it and walked out of earshot. I did not liked it at all, my suspicion heightened. When he came back, he said "she asked why I did not say good-bye". I said "how did she know we'd gone?" He said she must have spies at the hotel.
So the next 3 weeks whenever we had dinner his phone will get interrupted with texts messages from her and he'd reply to this without telling me who it was. My stomach started to feel as if it has a permanent knot. Then my sister in law told me she thinks he took her to his bed, shared a bed with her and likely had relationship with her because he bought 2 pillows because apparently they fought over pillows! I felt I'd been kicked in the gut!
Following evening, we had dinner with my brother and his wife. They both got drunk. Bro and SIL went home and I stayed with my asshole. He was drunk, started telling me he loved me, that his biggest regrets was not having married and had children. I told him "if you'd been married you'd be divorced by now and supporting God knows how many kids". He then started telling me how he loved this other girl too but it's a different kind of love, that if he wants to have children and I won't oblige he would do it with her because she is like me in a lot of ways. I then told him "she is not me, she will never be like me! I for one never accepts money from men not related to me by blood or marriage! And 2nd, I never pursue men! I have more class and dignity than that! How dare you compare her to me?". He tried telling me he only gave her money for taxis. Another lie. I busted him by saying and books for her course, and tuition fees? He was busted. He then tried saying "the books weren't not much". The asshole just could not stop lying! Why the hell for I don't know! So I told him "books costs thousands of pesos!". He realized he was busted and did not say anything anymore. And that was the end of our dinner.
He saw me off in Manila to catch my flight back to Oz. But he was not the same. He was colder, distracted. On the way to Manila, his whore texted him asking of his whereabouts. He told her that he was on a plane to Manila but did not tell her he was with me. Again I did not make any comments. We enjoyed the first night in Manila prior to my departure next day. But 2nd night we started talking about the other woman. It was evident to me then that he was smitten, infatuated. Bearing in mind that this was a woman young enough to be his daughter. I started to get sullen. The asshole noticed but I told him I was just thinking of work. Why I did not confront him at the time? Coz up until then he kept denying there was no one else.
So fast forward a month after I got back to Oz, called me yesterday. I asked him how he was and he said not good. I said "what is the matter?". Before he replied, he asked me to promise him that I will never abandon him, that I will stand by him no matter what. I felt that familiar knot in the stomach. I said I will. He won't say it, so I said "Is...pregnant?". Long silence and he finally said "yes". It feels like my world collapsed on me.
I tore stips onto him. I swear if he'd been in front of me I would have hit him. I asked him "how could you? So all those denials and you've been lying all along!". All I got was "I'm sorry". I asked him how far she was and he said "one month and one week". So they did it a week just before I got there! I could have killed him! I asked "when did this start?". "dunno, uh, can't remember. I broke it off last December but she was crying and begging me to take her back". I told him "and you're stupid enough to take her back".
She is pressuring him to marry her. I told him "of course she is because she's had this planned all along as far back as October! She was telling her relatives (heard this from the maid) how she and her family will make it to the US via you! If you don't believe me, ask Sarah (the maid), ask Linda (the laundry lady)". I told him "this was an entrapment planned for you and you walked right into it! We discussed this for 4 years that these women are conniving, scheming manipulative sluts to get into your country! But you did not listen! Now you will pay big time!". He started telling me that it might be possible that she was in loved with him. I told him "duh! If you give me money for my books, taxis, tuition fees and goodness knows what I'd tell you I loved you too!". He could not reply to this.
He then asked me what he should do. I said "go down south, I'll book you a hotel there and I'll join you next month". He said "I can't abandon my baby". I said "If this child is yours!". He replied "I know it's mine because she's not that kind of girl" trying to tell me she's not a whore. I then told him "get real! Would a decent girl hotly pursue a man she's barely known? Would a decent girl would voluntarily go to a foreign man's hotel room in an attempt to seduce him, then ask him to marry her when she's barely known him?". Again, he had nothing to say to this.
By then he was in tears asking me to help him, say something that will make him feel better. I told him "it's early days, she might miscarry yet. Ask her to have an abortion". He said "she won't because she wanted the baby". I said "of course she wanted a fucking child from you or any foreigner for that matter because the child will bring in a guaranteed income in the next 18 years!" He then asked if there are child support laws there. I said I don't think so. I was wrong. I looked it up later and my lying asshole is in deeper shit than he is now. But he does not know this yet.
I told him you don't have to abandon the child, but you need to ditched the mother if you don't want marriage. I told him to change his SIM card, but again, he wanted to keep in touch with her re-the baby. I told him, "is it really the baby you're concerned about or her fresh young ass?". He said the baby. I told him "get used to the idea of not seeing this child because at your age and your various illnesses, you might not even see this child start primary school!". I told him that I knew he'd been lying all along, that he was colder, distant. Again he tried to deny this, that he's the same man that I knew in the last 5 years. I told him to stop lying.
They were supposed to meet yesterday to tell her no marriage, no cohabitation and no commitment. But he is piss-weak, I doubt whether he had the balls to say these things to the fucking gold digger. I have not heard since. He's supposed to text me when he gets back up North. The more I think about it, the more I'm thinking I'm going to ditch him and told him so yesterday. He begged me not to. I've been thinking about this situation since yesterday, could not sleep last night had to take sleepers, felt so tense this morning, had to go for along walk. Really the best thing for me to do is to cut him loose. He has lied to me all along. A man who can not tell the truth can not be trusted. As for pain, I have not cried at all. Sure I was hurt, but I guess my feelings and emotions have been battered so much in a space of 5 months, it is exhausted. I can't fight anymore and he is not worth fighting for. I need to heal!
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It\'s been 12 days since he emailed me last. Our last conversation on April 23 ended badly. His last message was a 3 lines stating he is OK and is now renting his own apartment. I texted him 3 times asking him to tell my brother he is OK. I got no reply.
I got an email from his sister 3 nights ago asking if I have news of him. I said no. I checked his whore\'s facebook just now and the bitch posted there that she\'s \"feeling blessed\". I can only conclude that the bitch got what she wanted, the asshole probably buckled and agreed to put her in a house or being Sunday yesterdday, they probably met again. I am getting over him, but still angry. Yeah, the whore might be feeling blessed now, but her luck won\'t last. She deliberately got pregnant to force him into marriage. She\'s got a long way to go in convincing him. He, who is as unreliable as they come. I will bide my time and watch her downfall...