The thirda day

This is the third day since the breakup of my boyfriend of 3 years. I was so proud of us for making it when we were together without being stupid and young and getting, married or pregnant. We were making a life together and growing up. I had a problem with him being my everything. The only time I go out was when I was with him. The only time I would do anything was with him. I can't go out by myself. and no one else ever seems to want to go out with me. So he was my adventurous half. Now I am so lost and don't know what to do because he is gone. I keep saying he's going to come back, and that we will find our way back to each other. But honestly deep inside I think it is really the end. He hasn't wanted this for awhile and I just kept missing the signs. I've known for awhile it was going to end, but I just kept not thinking about it, because he has been my life for 3 years.
I am sad.
I hurt so bad inside.
I want this to pass.
I want to forget.
I want to live a life that is mine.......
 
I don't want to be alone.