the struggle

finally found out why i have lost my second daughter, an undetected infection in my uterus which spread to her lungs and liver.
my rational side says, yes this is unfortunate and there was nothing we could of done because we didn't know anything was wrong.
my irrational side say, i should have known my body better, it was my third pregnancy and should have realized something was not right.
 I'm kicking my self now that i didn't pick this up.
i really feel like i have let her down :(