The story up to now

I cut for the first time in 7th grade and at first it was only every once and a while when I was very upset. I only did it a few times during the school year and stopped completely over the summer. Now I am in 8th grade and I began cutting again. I don't even remember when exactly I started again it is all a blur. Somewhere in mid october and no later than early November. I made an othe to stop over winter break and failed. I am proud to say that I haven't cut since December 23, 2010. I threw away the blade I got out of a pencil sharpener that I had been using to cut. My dog got into the trash in my bathroom today and when I was cleaning up the mess I found the blade on my floor. With out a second thought I put it in my pocket and continued cleaning. It brought back a lot of bad thoughts and a lot of bad memories now I want to cut again. I talked to my best friend Brady and he begged me to throw it away but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I almost cut well taking my shower and I am worried if things get worse in my life that I will relapse. |/|

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I was in middle school the first time I cut too. My parents were going through a divorce and I felt that the only way to have control of something was to cut. I stopped for a good amount of time then something went wrong and I started again. This has happened a few times. It\'as never easy to let go of the pain, but finding something that makes you happy, just one thing. Helps A LOT. It gives you something to look forward too. If you want to ever talk send me a message. ~Alyssa
KnivesAndPens
KnivesAndPens

Thank you so much for this advice. It means a lot to have someone who has been through it to talk to that I don\'t actually know.