The start of a long journey

I've decided I'm going to continue this little journal. It was a great help yesterday to get my thoughts down. Today, I woke up later than I wanted to but kept the anxiety at bay. I return to my full-time job soon, and I'm wondering how much my anxiety is going to affect me there. I've already had to take a leave of absence because of a breakdown last year. My boss is amazing to welcome me back. He says he can't wait to work with me again.

So much to be grateful for! But my looming debt weighs on me so bad it destroys everything else in the way. How nice it would be to have someone who was sympathetic and understanding to go through my options with me if any.

I'm still realizing that this is the beginning of my recovery, in earnest. I'm scared, excited, and everything in between. I dearly hope if anyone out there is starting out on the road to self-love and recovery. My best wishes to all of you, you're wonderful!