Well never really have done and online journal but it sounds like a good idea. I have so many thoughts going thru my head right now...laying in bed. Trying to sleep...trying to convince myself I'm getting over her...and yet I still have butterflies in my stomach as we speak. I still miss her alot..her voice...smile...etc. That being said, I have a big trip to Hawaii planned for this week. I have to live....I have to. I have to live as if she is never comming back....I have to. I will get thru this. I survived a huge breakup with Sarah, losing my job, the Marines...I can get thru this. It will take time...and pain....but I will be a better person for this. Besides...what choice do I have haha. I'm gonna keep smiling...I'm HARDCORPS!!