The service for Brad will be on 7/24/09

The service for Brad will be held of 7/24/09.It will be held at 300 in the afternood and after the service...Brads ashes will be put by Brads father.It will be emotional for me.I was with Brad from 1996 until 5/22/09 that is almost 13 years.I did not have any sign or anything comment from him that he was so depressed,,but i will admit he was acting strange on and off for the past two months.Then he began to tell me stories about his sister and a person named Phoebe.He insisted that they went to Wimbledon and I knew then and now that Brad never travelled outside of the country.Brad hated to fly.He also hated to drive..him in Wimbledon..who is he trying to kid? He lost his job because of his drinking and he knew it.The company had it with him and a few others.They left him take one month off to sober off and then he came back..but they knew that he had a drinking problem.How much can a company take? He was one of the brighest employee.He could do anything and he knew it.Brad could cook and do things better then me.He was a better cook then me and he liked foods that I didnt ...we were miles apart.I will never forget Brad and the wonderful times that we had.I cannot hate this.But I have to hate what he did and how I am hurting on the inside.On the 14th...I have got an appointment with an employment councilor and then we will talk and she will work with me until I get a job so I have to save all of the money that he gave me.I am still in the house and I wont leave until I am asked to do so.I am on a month to month and finding another place for me will be hard.I ahve got a lot of stuff that Brad and I have collected.I have got 3 cats and i wont part with my cats at all.I have had Kramer since 1998 and Tooey since 1999 they are bonded.They are very good friends and they play together..where ever I go..they go and thats it...Brad was very impatient.He wanted things right away..and there is a song that I will refrain...in the early 1970s The Rolling Stones sang this song...YOU CANT ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT..And this is the lesson that Brad never learned.Money takes time to grow..Unless you win the lottery out in Washington...Money takes time to earn and grow and it cant be done right away.Suicide hurts.It hurts the persons that they person left behind and if Brad did survive...there is one question...WHY? why?