The Second Year
I have now made the adventure into the second year.....The second year without my son. It is unbelievable to me that I have gone a year a long difficut time that I have not heard Ken's voice, that I have not seen Ken's wonderful smile,,I have gone one year without Ken have the change to learn, to grow, to share, to live in this world.
I wonder how I have survived the year. I know I am different. I am mostly sad. So I am sadly empty...having a void in my heart that nothing, no one can repair.
So I start the second year of Ken's passing. Not yet has all come out...not yet all has not been shared. All I know at this time I still am missing my son so much! I know that my life will never be the same.
I do pray that there are other mom who do not experience the pain the you and I have traveled, yet we know there will be...let's just pray if they call on our group as usual we are there with open arns,
As I type this I think of the pain many families are going through from the shootings that left many dead or in the hospital. I remember one person commented about why the judge decided to go there. He went to give well wishes and today he is dead. The person who said this seemed shock and I guess faced the reality of how short our lives can be.
It is sad as his voice trailed off "He was here yesterday...Today he is dead"
Reality of life hit all of us when we lost our child. I think we get where we think it won't happen to us, so we don't worry, yet in a moment for reasons unknown a life has be taken and now families suffer....It's very sad of the losses of these deaths this past weekend.....Senseless for someone, a stranger take a gun and wipe out so many people's lives and began so many sad days ahead for the families.
As we remember our days of sadness, let us not forget others who are just starting this horrible road that we travel and remember they need our support whether we ever see them or talk to them or they may never join our group, but we can still hold them close in our hearts as they begin the first days of this journey that we wish no one to travel.
I wonder how I have survived the year. I know I am different. I am mostly sad. So I am sadly empty...having a void in my heart that nothing, no one can repair.
So I start the second year of Ken's passing. Not yet has all come out...not yet all has not been shared. All I know at this time I still am missing my son so much! I know that my life will never be the same.
I do pray that there are other mom who do not experience the pain the you and I have traveled, yet we know there will be...let's just pray if they call on our group as usual we are there with open arns,
As I type this I think of the pain many families are going through from the shootings that left many dead or in the hospital. I remember one person commented about why the judge decided to go there. He went to give well wishes and today he is dead. The person who said this seemed shock and I guess faced the reality of how short our lives can be.
It is sad as his voice trailed off "He was here yesterday...Today he is dead"
Reality of life hit all of us when we lost our child. I think we get where we think it won't happen to us, so we don't worry, yet in a moment for reasons unknown a life has be taken and now families suffer....It's very sad of the losses of these deaths this past weekend.....Senseless for someone, a stranger take a gun and wipe out so many people's lives and began so many sad days ahead for the families.
As we remember our days of sadness, let us not forget others who are just starting this horrible road that we travel and remember they need our support whether we ever see them or talk to them or they may never join our group, but we can still hold them close in our hearts as they begin the first days of this journey that we wish no one to travel.
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