The season

This time of year always brings a little bit of "sadness" to me.  I've loved and lost in my life....I think of the times that I had with T and his family and the holidays and how very special times they were.  New Year's Eve was always such a big occassion...we'd go to a banquet hall with all the other "Italians" like us and eat and drink and laugh and dance together....just such a magical time.  And then I would go back to my life with him where there was mistrust and deceit....
In any event, I've come quite a long way in these past 2 1/2 years.  I'm certainly not there yet and the icing on the cake will be when I can fall in love again like that.
In the meantime, I have the love of my kids, my family and my friends.  What more could one ask for?  Thank you Lord....