The sad blahs
I know I am tired when ________________________.
I know I am sad when __________________________.
I know I am BOTH tired and sad when ____________________.
I am working on being able to fill in those blanks. Today I feel so blah... I don't know if it's useful to take it apart like a big ol' knot, or if I'm too tired for that anyway. Just sayin'. I'm tired and sad.
Driving down the highway from a work presentation and meeting I was anxious about... it went very well... and I'm thinking boo hoo hoo hoo hoo... but too tired to cry. We all know what it's about. Really sad stuff. The saddest stuff possible. Damn. Poor kid. No fair.
xox sarah
I know I am sad when __________________________.
I know I am BOTH tired and sad when ____________________.
I am working on being able to fill in those blanks. Today I feel so blah... I don't know if it's useful to take it apart like a big ol' knot, or if I'm too tired for that anyway. Just sayin'. I'm tired and sad.
Driving down the highway from a work presentation and meeting I was anxious about... it went very well... and I'm thinking boo hoo hoo hoo hoo... but too tired to cry. We all know what it's about. Really sad stuff. The saddest stuff possible. Damn. Poor kid. No fair.
xox sarah
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Oh, Sarah,
I know I am those things when I open my eyes in the morning. I hate this crap for all of us...it isn\'t fair - nothing about it is fair. I hate that we are grieving for our boys - so lost, so sad, so lonely. They had so much to give this world and __________ what can I say? I understand the longing and yearning - GOD help us! I\'m Loving YOU through today - Suzzanne
You\'re so right - NO FAIR!! May you be able to turn your frown upside down when you think of all the wonderful memories you have and the life you were given prior to the saddest day of your life and thereafter. Sometimes I don\'t know if I make sense or not, but I try. Hugs, BarbaraWawa (Barb)
I have had the blahs for awhile now. Headache, sore neck, exhaustion. And the utter devastating sadness. Absolutely NO FAIR!
I try to recall the good stuff but it isn\'t easy.
Love and hugs, Marlene
I\'m with you dear Sarah and have been struggling myself... had a good cry with a dear friend yesterday and woke up with a hangover head and believe me I hadn\'t been drinking yet wish I could have attributed it to that! :) It\'s not fair and is horribly wrong that our precious Andy and Doug are not here today as we so wish they could be... Tight hugs dear one and I\'m with you... It\'s a full moon and the Native Americans call it a snow moon. I think I\'ll go out and howl tonight with all of my might. With love to my howling sister. Joanie
I know Sarah. Sometimes Ken will ask \"what\'s wrong?\". It all comes back to our kids. You said it all. No fair! I wish you peace. Love, Linda
DEAR SARAH;I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL MY DAUGHTER HAS BEEN GONE 8YEARS AND 2 MONTHS TODAY. EVERY TIME I SEE THE NUMBER 18 I THINK OF THAT DAY AS THE SADDEST DAY OF MY LIFE STILL. GRIEF IS A LIFE LONG PROCESS. SHE WAS MY ONLY CHILD. I HAVE CRIED TILL MY EYES ARE SO SWOLLEN AND I FEEL SO TIRED AND SICK. SO YOU ARE NOT ALONE. HOPE TOMARROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY FOR YOU BLESS YOUR ANGEL AND YOU LOTS OF WARM HUGS ZZZ
Sad.... Yes, I know and blah. I feel your pain. Damn is right.....*sigh* Im sorry Sarah, Love - Ess
it is the heavy weight of the foreverness of unfathomable loss and a changed life and world...that makes for sad and tired, and yes, for NO FAIR....
Sad & tired. Tired of being sad. Life sucks ! Why did someone think we could handle this.... if this is the circle of life can we jump off and go in a different direction ????
Hugs Penny
So tired of people saying \" think of the good times and all the memories!\" Oh God how they do not understand..... sometimes I just wish they would zip it... I did not ask for their comments. Pissed off and just plain sad today sorry.... Marilyn
So tired, or yes how I do relate...if I get a bit upset, it takes such a toll on my body....if I cry, I am so tired....Yes Yes Yes.....your feelings are so real.
I reread you questions and my answers to each would be When I wake up!!!!
The blahs.... I push against them when I can. I try to make other people laugh, I try to reach out, I just wish I didn\'t have to \"try\" and to just \"be\". But that spontaeous part of me is all but gone. AND oh how Jim would not like that!
I have to believe I will be the real me at some point in time. I\'m waiting!
xoxox
Soos
We are all very changed. There is no way we can bear this suffering without great personal change. Hopefully we will be more empathetic and sensitive people, our lives will have taken on deeper meanings as we try to incorporate our child\'s special qualities into our daily experiences. Spring will come, and we will always miss our loved ones. It is not fair, it\'s just life.
yeah, we all know those feelings. Last night, going to bed, out of nowhere, I just began sobbing with that broken heart feeling again. And some days its feeling like nothing at all matters. And then, on other days, I see a crow flying and think of Jon and I smile, remembering what a very sweet boy and man he was. I know sometimes you think about Andy and smile with the joy of him too.