the ruff road

well monday mornin I hit the road running. Just because I lost my brother and sister all within 34 days plus my son going back to prison, now leaving me raising my two grandchildren..hell no..this is not going to break me but just make me relize I have a purpose "my grandchildren" so I got back to my two jobs and it felt good. kinda leaving the muck behide. My concern lies in my grandkids thats all that matters. Along with the grief I been dealing wiith,  I get the dredded call from my son. Its was a minute calls where u talk over the auto teller selling minutes. I did get a chance to tell him I was not going to be joining him this time around and he will die a very lonely man. We told each other we loved each other and he says " keep postive mom." then the phone died. he was arrained and pled not gulity..trial Dec 5th. I will not be attending.. am done. I will not be a part of the system again. His own children dont want any part of it. He really put them through hell the last 6 months. so will see. One day at a time. right.??