The road to healing

I am feeling more positive now, after reading some other parents stories and seeing their perspectives.  Things don't seem so foggy now and I feel I can move forward without feeling so guilty.  Like a berievement, you have to learn to function again and to stop beating yourself up over things you should have done that you didn't do and things you shouldn't have done that you did do.  The past is in the past, I can't change the things that happened there and if she won't give me a chance to put things right, then I just have to move on myself and maybe there won't be such a warm welcome if she chooses to contact me again, I'll just have to wait and see, but for now....it's onward