The River Trip

Today was hot and muggy and I was in a weepy mood all day. While in my car before work, I always spend a little time talking to God. For some reason my heart was heavy for all the pain and hurt of all my friends. I told God, if I could ask for one thing it would be to take up on all their pain on myself. To give each one peace. Then this evening I took my dogs and went to the river to meditate and take the peace that the river gives me. As I sat in the ripples the times I would hide in the barn away from my drunken husband came with pain I felt and the times I would go to the city park to find a dark place to hide from him too. Why the pain of this came to surface I dont know. I had a good weeping but didnt last long. Its hard to weep with a pug staring at you with her head cocked to one side and giving you that pug look. I has to smile. Then I listen to the running water, and just let things flow out of me into the stream. The cool running water felt good and peace came over me as I sat there. Again I have the strength to return to the real world and can take the needed steps to go on once more.