the results are in!

and evidently i am a moody, clingy, needy, self-defeating hypochondriac with addiction tendencies...or so sayeth my t-doc and the report of all those tests. i skimmed through the report and some of it i see, a lot of the rest i don't see and it makes me feel really insecure and loser-ish to realise that that's the person people see when they interact with me. i insert myself into abusive relationships because i rely on outside perspectives and desperately need validation....really? i thought my relationships were okay. granted the mother thing, well that's bad, but i do alright with my sibs and friends (those i've managed to keep anyway). i may exaggerate my wellness status for sympathy and attention...ummm....??? well doesn't that make me feel all positive about myself. i am incredibly negative and defeatist about my perspective on life and in my interactions in general...seriously? granted blue funks are a right bi-otch and i'm pretty negative when i'm blue, but i thought i managed being relatively positive for others if not always myself most of the time. and the addiction thing? i only drink socially which is rare, and i don't do drugs except for my RX cocktail...so where is the addict assessment coming from? the whole thing makes me want to go crawl under my bed and never come out. oh wait, there's that melodrama coming to play again, never mind...