The Proposal

She mailed me today saying she wanted her account back didnt wanna work with me anymore said she just couldnt handle it anymore and that "I shouldnt take it the wrong way". Oh how my heart bled reading it. oh how it burns and bleeds if only i could prove to her how good I am how iv changed if only there were someway to show her how much i cared how badly i want her. oh how I love her.
I said I understood and that I wouldnt mail her again I then went on to give a business pitch.
 we wont be in touch vl just have one common account a gmail thats link to the business and vl have our own clients and everything
let me use it till jan as in this month and next il have my own account by then
i wont mail or bother you about anything
around the 7th-10th of the month il give you bank details to send money.whatever i earn minus 20% royalty. I dont care how much you send or how you calculate my share you dont even need to mail me when uv sent itil mail you when its recieved. so thats like 2 mails a month for 3 months.Im sure you can deal with six more emails from me
also you get dibbs on all clients that means even if i answer a query first but you want the project you can have it.
i hope to make 50-100k per month in the following months thats 10-20k in royalties this is not even factoring in the money ul make off clients ul get because ur profile ranking rises due to the volume of work. its very good business sense rest is up to you
Also I have profiles on other sites and i would be more than happy to link them with a joint account. you can bid using my profiles on other sites and pay me 5% royalty.
I wont bore you with the details but the business should turn a profit within 3 months and my target is to have it turn over a profit of atleast 300k a month within a year. thats 60k a month for you within a year if you so choose to become a shareholder in my company. The company will be registered in january and u never have to hear from me again ever after that even if you become a silent partner
I rest my case
 
 
All i really want is an excuse to be around her to have some semblance some form of contact with her just something anything I cant bear to have her totally out of my life.
I just I cant I just cant deal with this right now I need to focus on work I need to think about getting the business up and running it and giving my exams and getting into college.
So now I am gonna shut down emotionally go numb and cold and fly low so so very low
no more pussing around online no more mailing her no more thinking of her no more fantasizing of a better life no more romantacizing how things would have been different if...
Just work work work and nothing else. No more touchy feely bullshit im going into warrior mode.
Reminds me of grom hellscream and the war song clan when they drank from the corrupted gfountain bringing out a maddening blood lust and rage so great that it drove them insane. I am gonna go insane I am gonna work like an animal and get back to the top again to the very fucking top of the food chain.
        Storm Earth and Fire heed my call
O spirits of old it I shendelzare silkwood the spirit of vengeance the harbinger of the goddesses wrath I call upon thee give me strength imbue me with your magic give me the strength to destroy all that stand in my path and let me leave a trail of destruction in my path.
May the goddess watch over me
elune adore