The priest told me not to be angry-what gives? vader 7-20

Yesterday the priest saw me and told me that I was angry and not to let the memory of brad fade.He told me to grieve at least 6 months and to end my grieving on my birthday.Yesterday i came home and I yelled at his picture.Why? Why all of this rage? I have never had rage before and it scares me.Doesnt anyone read about the high school killings? Dont people know that half of the shooters had rage? I am scared at the rage I have at Brad.I am so scared.I will always love Brad.We have good times together..but I found out this..Brads grandparents,and aunts died in an asylum in the late 20s and 30s.Brads grandfather died at 40 years old,he died with a bottle of whisky under his bed.And his aunts did not fare anybetter.They died the victims.Lets be sensible then..They didn t have AA,Nor did they have The Betty Ford Center.Can anyone imagine that pain that these ladies went throught? We cant allow old wives tales and ancient supersittions rule as now.Lets try to live in the 21st century and I realize this...Alcoholism is a disease and it is passed thru generation to generation.And unless it is stoped..it will continue to grow and more lives will be hurt.Lets give Brad support and i will alwayslove Brad..but the lies and such still sting.There is one question..why did he lie to me? Why did he tell this well know psychiarist that he was having financial problems? I know that this isnt true.We were not having money problems.Our problems were communication and Brad knew this..so why are people believing this lie? it simply isnt true.