The people on this site deserve better!
Today I was a mess. I found this sight and made friends and got hugs and great advise! The people on this site are some of the nicest in the world so why is it that we are all the ones needing help for being used, lied to, let down, left...etc...? I don't get it. I choose to believe God has a better life planned for each and every one of us. We just need to lean on eachother for a while until his plan is revieled to us. I thank you all for making a really hard day much easier!
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Thats why we are here.
Sweetie...He does have a wonderful plan for each of us. Keep your eyes, ears and heart opened and it shall be revealed. Look UP and here for strength. There are so many wonderful souls here to help and to lean on. Many great discussions to join in on or just to read. By the way...please remove the \'slightly overweight\' note in your profile. Replace it with \'beautiful (eyecolor) eyes\'. Starting thinking positive. You are a beautiful woman and should think of yourself that way. ((HUGS))
I realized today the real probelm with my ex that I had not faced. He is addicted to Xanax and the ex he kept behind my back is his connection that is why he lied and kept seeing her. I kenw he was on medication for panic attacks but I didn\'t know he was on this stuff for 14 years. No doctor would give such a drug for such a long period of time. I should have questioned more, why no pill bottles only cute little cases, why no doc or pharmacy visits no Walgreens bags or all of the papoerwork that comes with the scripts! It expains so much!!! My husband of 18 years was an alchoholic then I fall in love with a drug addict I should have noticed sooner same type of lies and deception! The hardest part is knowing you can\'t help them. They have to hit bottom, face their demons and want to fix it. Neither of the men have even faced the issue. Boy I know how to pick them! Both booze and Xanax make them numb to the kind of pain they inflict on the people that love them! I tried 18yrs (because of kids) with the last one. I can\'t devote anymore of my heart or strength to try to help the current one. It won\'t do any good if he doesn\'t want the help (he says if it ain\'t broke don\'t fix it!) He doesn\'t see he is \"broken\". I can\'t let him break me anymore! Shame is he (unlike the husband) is worth saving if only it were possible. I know in my mind it is not but my heart still breaks for him! I would gladly make him hate me and never see him again if I could give him his life back but I know I can do nothing but pray for him and try to bury that love and move on. I let him know if he ever wants to face the real issue and seek my help I will come running but I doubt that will ever happen! 14 yrs!! Not even his family knew he kept his secreat safe until he let me into his life! I loved him enough to get to the bottom of things that didn\'t make sense! I told him I loved him unconditionally, he said everyone that loves him leaves and I will too. (This all started with the death of his Dad and brother, he colapsed and they put him in the hospital then on drugs. When the docs said know no one followed up so he just continued with the help of his \"so called friend\" to continue on the meds. I know this girl she is dumb and has always been into such things. Anything to please and look good to him! Even help him kill hisself! I pray for her too! What else can I do. I\'d like to beat her you know what (not my style I am a lady!) he will protect and defend her because he needs her for his addiction! It is a sad thing. What will happen if she can\'t hook him up?? You can die or go into a coma from sudden withdrawl of these things after that long. I am so scared for him and I feel so useless to help. WHo can I tell, what can I do?? nothing I guess but talk to God and trust he will work it out.
Wow, I can completely identify with this situation. The ex-girl that Bill went back to is his cocaine connection. She doesn\'t care about him or his health, but somehow in his mind that doesn\'t matter. I would have done anything to help him beat his addiction and supported him through life, but the coke and alcohol are more important and easier for him... I get angry at the other woman though. It makes me angry that she doesn\'t care about him and has no desire to help him beat his addiction...she would rather add to his problems. You are not alone.