the past
Today an old ex boyfriend texted me and began telling me how that if I was with him I would be happy. Which is complete bullshit. But this brought up all of these old feelings and memories. Those few years are foggy but I have times were I remember little things that just make my heart sink.
I did not like who I used to be. And I so different now. I am still struggling and things are still difficult but I finally at least feel like myself. And today, I took everything in my room that reminded me of that time like old papers and all of these different items. I threw them away. And I put the important things in a box, taped it shut and put it away. I don't need those things in my life anymore. Its time for some change...
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Hello my new friend. After reading your post I wanted to express a thought, some words of wisdom. Your choice of not going back to the past is always a good one, but destroying everything from the past sometimes we need to reflect back and once they're gone they're gone. Not only are they memories of happiness that we once shared, but they're also memories why we've moved on with their lives. The past is the past and should be left there but the past is also what made us who we are today. Our anger is what destroys us inside. Don't allow it to consume your life don't let it change you keep what you once had your dreams your hopes your ideas and hold on to them because the future can only be built on dreams. You'll find happiness it's within you and your heart and salad if it wasn't you wouldn't have reached out to me today in my time of need. I cherish every moment of every day person that I've ever been with the good the bad the unusual thank you for your friendship today it really does mean a lot.
I once did a massive burning session of old photographs and papers. For me it felt good and helped me move on. I don't miss the bad memories and the couple of good memories are still there. But then my bad memories were pretty awful. I now cherish the recent memories and every moment of the present. I would say the recent past and what I do today defines me but then we are all different.
If something brings up that much pain then its better to just take the good part of those memories and move on, forget the rest, its not a easy task but sometimes you just got to do it. Love is two faced gives you most amount of joy and most amount of pain but better to love and lose rather than not love at all. ..Hugs..
Thanks guys, I have been feeling better throwing away stuff that brings me so much sadness. I did however keep somethings that were good and I just put them away for now. I don't want to look at them now. Maybe later in life.. I just want to focus on the now, and i don't want these other things to distract me