THe parentals couldn't do anything the night I overdosed...
I just foudn out, because it was a crime scene. It looked as if I had been attacked, adn they were checking to protect me from the law, because I had weed in my house, and I was high, but not on that on pills. I was messed up. I know she couldn't have been serious when she told me to kill myself. COuldn't be real or else I wouldn't have hurt her so bad when I seriously attempted at her prompting. I said if you were so worried about me being arrested for weed, why didn't you just frigging dump it save your daughters life, and help her instead of trying to hurt her more for relapsing? They must understand, I do what I do to survive. I don't want to hate my family. But somehow they don't understand me. They never will. Its my fight to fight not theirs, This is my battle to win. I did overcome after a serious relapse, and I am happy now. No matter what they try to say to make it up. Heidi
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I smoke weed too. I take pills for chronic pain, never touched them until age 35 when the pain got bad. I\'ve never been high on my medications and that doesn\'t appeal to me. I hope that you do not take pills if you are overdosing! It is really important to follow the directions and not take more than prescribed. Why did you OD? Were you intentionally trying to harm yourself or did you mess up, unintentional overdose? I hope that this will not happen again. Please be careful. You owe it to yourself and those that love you. Look at this from the eyes of your family. How would you feel if you were in their shoes?
My mother told me to and how read my first journal entry.
I love you Heidi! hug to you and you are strong sister!
I love you Heidi! hug to you and you are strong sister!
Thank you lovely ladies. Coolwaterbaby, I enjoyed our talk the other day, hope we can do it soon, when my throat is speaking again lol. Let\'s catch up asap. I\'ll text you when my throat is soothed another day. Love you ChronicL and miss you too. Catch up soon guys, keeping health in mind, your friend Heidster.