the paper are signed

It's so hard to beleive that I am starting IVF. I can look back at previous journal entries and I actually had written I would never afford that. Yet, here I am with all my protocal papers. I am so surprised, and shocked at how GOd works. It all just fell into place. Mind you, my mind seeps in the negative thoughts but I CAN"T allow myself to go there. I don't care who thinks I am crazy but I'm going to be a mommy this fall. I can't beleive it..I want to journal this whole process, print it, and keep it to remind myself of all I went through. The clinic is great and everyone is so nice! They said the numbers were awesome regarding the number pregnancies in the studies and she said the multiples have been many. I want twins so bad!!! I just am so excited about this journey.  God has taken me to a place that I thought I wouldn't have ever been able to do..and what tremendous favor he has given me with the people running the study! OH, AND I LOST 3 POUNDS THIS WEEK!!! I have lost 24 pounds in all. I want to lose at least 10 more pounds before placing my babies in their home.