The pain still exists
Dreams remaking it harder to cope. I want her back so bad in my dreams. I still love her so much.
We were together 22 years how do you get over that. Better question how did she get over it.
i have come to the conclusion that I am a bad person. It was not worth it or the kids for her to put up with me. I am a broken person who does not deserve love or family. I drove her into the arms of another. If I was so great she would never have looked twice at another man. But I must have pailed in comparison. I am not a man I am not a person. I just breath and exist.
God forgive me. I destroyed my family not her. My actions, words, and personality are at fault. She deserved better than me and she found it.
I hate myself
EDIT
I have re read this entry. This is all BS. I didn't do anything to deserve the lies, manipulation, and cheating. If you don't love me anymore they we divorce. Nothing made you go out and look for something on the side other than yourself. Do you not have any self control? A conscious? Did you think of your kids at all? You are a selfish, self righteous, self absorbed, waste of my time. Yeah Im angry now. Why am I letting you tear me apart?
We were together 22 years how do you get over that. Better question how did she get over it.
i have come to the conclusion that I am a bad person. It was not worth it or the kids for her to put up with me. I am a broken person who does not deserve love or family. I drove her into the arms of another. If I was so great she would never have looked twice at another man. But I must have pailed in comparison. I am not a man I am not a person. I just breath and exist.
God forgive me. I destroyed my family not her. My actions, words, and personality are at fault. She deserved better than me and she found it.
I hate myself
EDIT
I have re read this entry. This is all BS. I didn't do anything to deserve the lies, manipulation, and cheating. If you don't love me anymore they we divorce. Nothing made you go out and look for something on the side other than yourself. Do you not have any self control? A conscious? Did you think of your kids at all? You are a selfish, self righteous, self absorbed, waste of my time. Yeah Im angry now. Why am I letting you tear me apart?
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