The new me!

I am a really different individual than I was on May 29,coming in 2 that shelter not knowing who 2 talk 2 or what on earth I was supposed 2 do.I vowed 2 God & 2 myself that I was only going 2 give from that day 4ward,after 35 years of take it was time 2 give back.I am giving whenever I have the resources 2 give,Rolling papers are in demand right now,I always have some & the other guests know that.My ability 2 listen is increasing exponentially along with my eagerness 2 learn everything that is passed in front of me.Scriptures fill alot of my time,as I see more & more applications of scripture 2 our daily lives,& how we have skewed the path from righteous 2 something resembling a serpent.Wandering is exactly 1 of the causes of the wide spread apathy I encounter on a daily basis,especially in that warehouse with 300 other people,sometimes as many as 370.A virus is another thing spreading in there,it just keeps circulating among the population,no matter how many faces change over the course of a month.My ability 2 shed the negative is almost perfect,just walk away,some ask why you are leaving,I wasn't done yet.I was done listening the second you got negative,you lost me.My sense of humor has become a valuable weapon,maybe more than I fully realize,because it gets more use than anything,defence or not,forearmed is forewarned.I have seen numerous scenarios in which the old me would have reacted badly,in some cases violently.That is no exaggeration,just ask my wife & kids,also the Airdrie RCMP detachment.Most of all,no booze is making me so clear of thinking,sleeping well again,eating regularly,moving regular,so key is that,not enough emphasis on dietary control,need 2 work on that 1.Constant battle with self,don't eat that,ate a sticky bun yesterday am,felt lousy until I ate an orange at 5 pm.Calmness in me now is overwhelming,like a feeling of solitude in thinking,ability 2 shut other things out no matter how numerous or noisesome.Working with new worker on Thursday 2 seek a career direction.spinelessinalbertaJustKeepSmilin' :) JesusSaves! P2