The Movie In My Mind

There is a song from Miss Saigon called The Movie In My Mind...  The song is about the dreams/movies in their minds of various characters in the musical...  maybe most people think its just Kim who has a movie in her mind... but all the girls do and even the engineer...  but in the movie in my mind... I see Cara... She is 38 looking a little more mature but still beautiful... she will always be beautiful to me...  I see Cara beside each of her children...  life is so different...  she never died... their lives were never scarred by the pain of all the times they have to deal with the fact that their mom isn't here... I hold her... not a desperate hug... its a hug we exchange every time we get together... just a natural expression of the joy of our lives... we talk about every day things...  I feel such peace... not struggling to keep afloat...