The Monster On Mute

I'm still working through the difficult decisions at work....first I veer this way, then I get some different information and veer that way.....something else comes up, and then there I go back the other way again!!!  Enough already.... Even with that, I'm not tempted to gamble.  I remember how sad and hopeless I felt when I was in the death grip of the addiction.  The monster had me and it was very painful!  All that was good in me was being eaten away.... At times in my recovery, I have had "urges" and wishes to go back....These last few weeks, I feel very different.I have no longing to go.  I don't think of it.I don't hear any call at all....maybe I put the Monster on "Mute"LOLIt is good.There was a while when I was afraid I would ALWAYS want to gamble, and would just endureNOT GAMBLING.... I don't dare let myself believe I will never be tempted....These few weeks may just be a temporary blessing.I just hope they last a long, long time! People told me early in recovery it would get better and better.Is this what they meant? For those struggling now...I can tell you for sure there can be better days aheadWhen you are not pulled by desire to play with the MonsterWhen you have whole stretches of time where you are left in Peace. It is so so worth the effortTo stay on the "road to recovery".... Don't give up hopePersevereConnectAsk for Help We are here, your companions on this road.....  Hmmmm....not sure where that came from...except from my heart, of course... The most important part is that I owe it all to my dear friends here on this site.Big Hugs, Much LoveDianne