the modern prometheus.
it's a constant stream of consciousness, the ultimate truth about how art and inspiration is just your perception and interpretation of life and the reality around you. listen to a song, and pause as the narration flows through your mind like sand through your hands- slipping through the hourglass and never staying quite on key. when your mind is always two steps ahead of the ink. bury me with a pen, because god knows i’ll forever live in this altered state, and i’m destined to die here. it’s about how everything makes you feel- how you’re more than human because you understand the true meaning behind the infinite universe and everything encompassing it. a super(ior) perspective. forever a self born monster with the hungry desire to dissect all in sight; until it means anything. with all synapses firing, you understand the theories and ideas of the great intellectuals; the divine knowledge of utmost reality- art, beauty, life, humanity, and enlightenment. then you reach the darker side of the path; the bruised affair kept hidden from sight- the truth and knowledge and understanding of the mind of the serial killer, the sociopath, the damned; and the overwhelming desire to act upon it all. an unbearable struggle and battle within yourself to shut out the violence, to mask the hate and brutality- tucked in a corner for later analysis. the truth is, this is enlightenment. ultimate inspiration and insight to reality. this state of being reaches your infinite heights, and these ideas are your pure gold philosophy. shine on, you crazy diamond.
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Wow, that is very deep, that is for sure. I read your response to my topic on the Cocaine forum. You say you now have drug induced schizophrenia? How long has it been since you\'ve been off the drugs and do you ever feel just normal. Do you shift back and forth from your normal reality to an altered state, as you put it. Do you have szhizophrenia symptoms all the time now and what are your symptoms.
Im just trying to figure out my husband. I haven\'t seen any schizo behaviours in him for a while, but he does seem spaced out at times. Sometimes I think he gets dillusional still even now. I\'m worried he may never get rid of it all ever.
Sorry for all the questions, but you can\'t learn if you don\'t ask. Thank you, peace to you.