The Merry-Go-Round
Life on the Merry-Go-Round after I lost my child.
The Merry-Go-Round starts taking you up up up and down down down and again you go up up up and down down down ...and no matter if your going up or down your so sad, your crying, your wondering why...then the Merry-Go-'Round starts to slow down as it prepares to stop to let someone off....based on where your setting,you may be going slowly around and around for some time as the Merry-Go-Round lets someone else off.....slowly seem as you ride around your heartache starts to get a little less pain.......You get to the top of the Merry-Go-Round and at the top high in the sky, you say to yourself that your going to make it....the blue skies...the sun shinning brightly you have you life back..nothing has changed and looking down in the crowd you see all your family smiling up at you...then the Merry-Go-Round starts moving again getting closer and closer to the ground again you feel that fear again, you start to feel the darkness move within you..The pain is back and then you remember your child is gone.....As the Merry-Go-Round gets to the ground, it's ready for you to get off..but you sit there, you don't know what to do...you don't want to get off, you want to go back up high where there is no pain, that everything in your life is back as it was before.....You stay frozen to your seat, with pleading eyes, for the man to just start it up again so you can go up again so everything can be alright again....But as you sit there, he just keeps telling you to get off, there is more people who has to take this ride....slowly you rise from your seat...and there you are once again the the horror of your pain knowing that no matter what you do ....life will never be the same....you go to the back of the line to ride again....and again you get on the Merry-Go-Round....it starts to go up...your starting to feel things are normal again and around and around your go until you feel the Merry-Go-Round slowing down again...and then you know when you get to the bottom nothing has changed.....Once again, as always, there is the pain all over again.....you walk away....then take a look back....and that's when you know...Nothing has changed for you now as you had wished..................The Merry-Go-Round is your life now.......Sandi
The Merry-Go-Round starts taking you up up up and down down down and again you go up up up and down down down ...and no matter if your going up or down your so sad, your crying, your wondering why...then the Merry-Go-'Round starts to slow down as it prepares to stop to let someone off....based on where your setting,you may be going slowly around and around for some time as the Merry-Go-Round lets someone else off.....slowly seem as you ride around your heartache starts to get a little less pain.......You get to the top of the Merry-Go-Round and at the top high in the sky, you say to yourself that your going to make it....the blue skies...the sun shinning brightly you have you life back..nothing has changed and looking down in the crowd you see all your family smiling up at you...then the Merry-Go-Round starts moving again getting closer and closer to the ground again you feel that fear again, you start to feel the darkness move within you..The pain is back and then you remember your child is gone.....As the Merry-Go-Round gets to the ground, it's ready for you to get off..but you sit there, you don't know what to do...you don't want to get off, you want to go back up high where there is no pain, that everything in your life is back as it was before.....You stay frozen to your seat, with pleading eyes, for the man to just start it up again so you can go up again so everything can be alright again....But as you sit there, he just keeps telling you to get off, there is more people who has to take this ride....slowly you rise from your seat...and there you are once again the the horror of your pain knowing that no matter what you do ....life will never be the same....you go to the back of the line to ride again....and again you get on the Merry-Go-Round....it starts to go up...your starting to feel things are normal again and around and around your go until you feel the Merry-Go-Round slowing down again...and then you know when you get to the bottom nothing has changed.....Once again, as always, there is the pain all over again.....you walk away....then take a look back....and that's when you know...Nothing has changed for you now as you had wished..................The Merry-Go-Round is your life now.......Sandi
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