The Loss Of Her Son, More Grieving Will Be Done

Have  you ever been a parent who has lost a child, your inner soul is screaming, “Please",  "Help Me God",  "What Can I Do”?  “Oh ,No God", "How" am I going to live, without my "boy”? “Oh God", "Why didn’t you let me know”???   "Oh God",  "Now, I know,"..  "It  was his time to go", and you didn’t want anyone to know. For his mother Kelly and family,  we were all blown away, it was Ryan’s  younger sister Erica early that day, she was the one who had found him in that horrible way. She screamed with her friend, as the two girls were crying, "COME UP QUICK MOM  IT IS RYAN", when Kelly got to the bedroom she knew right away, that her loving son Ryan, lay dying this day. Kelly saw her young son from across the room, as she got closer to him she saw the color purple and blue, and she knew,...  Also hard as a rock,  he had foam in his mouth, “Oh God” It is true, his breathing had stopped, there was nothing she could do.....As if everything wasn’t already bad enough,  after Ryan’s funeral  it really got tough, the first year was so brutal there was no time to choose, but you won’t identify with Kelly,  until you walk in her shoes, from that day until today, our lives have never been the same, For Kelly and her family, loved Ryan so much, they were afraid to see Kelly crying in pain, in not being in touch, all we could do is pray for the day, that maybe, she would be happy again someday. Now Kelly is starting to change, she’s sick and tired of feeling excruciating pain, she is turning it over to God, to help her remain, Now that she turned her life over to God, he knows her pain,!!  "God" Gave Ryan his destiny to guide his mother’s life, and his sisters too! He will spiritually walk them through hard times, until someday when its their time , Ryan will be waiting for his mother Kelly, and sister Erica, to give them the golden key.                            Love, Lan  (boyfriend)