The little voices

Well I have made it 14 days since I last gambled or bought a lottery ticket.That is also the first day I joined daily strength.I am proud of myself so far but sometimes I hear the little voice telling me just go play $20.I fight that little voice I even talk to it and tell it no you can't be trusted.Not once in 26 years have you ever spent only $20.I know my life has to change I feel like I have lost my very expensive therapy and my best friend.I actually plan our family vacations around a casino.I don't think I have ever had a vacation that didn't include gambling.I canceled our upcoming cruise because I can't trust myself.Just taking it day by day but I am very hopeful.