The Little Things that Used to be Big...

Lost my glasses this morning on my way to work.  Due to my recent gambling activities, I have no money to replace them.  I really liked those glasses.  In the past, an incident like this would have given me a "reason" to gamble.  Anger, loneliness, boredom, etc. are all triggers for me.
I told myself that I would be more aware of what I was really feeling when I had a desire to gamble.  This morning I was able to talk myself out of the desire, because I had to remind myself that I still have a spare pair at home and it is NOT the end of the world.
Before, every little "bad" thing that happened to me would be my reason to go gamble.  Today, I am proud to say that I just accepted that things happen and went on about my day, still ready for whatever other curve balls life wanted to throw at me.
For the first time in a long time, I am in control.  I like having control over my actions.  It makes me feel responsible.  It makes me feel good.  I never want to go back to the feeling of being "out of control" again.
God bless recovery, second chances, and most importantly, this site for giving me the opportunity to get it right!
Stay committed people!  It's up to us!