the limit

Ok so I have reached my limit, too many doa.s at work, too much bullshit at home with my lying piece of shit husband and now I feel like I should just take off, bonus I am drunk.  I don't normally drink but I had to get al the horrible images of the week at work and my stupid husbands stupid porn addictionout of my head,.  I am pissed off and alone.  He of course is sound asleep ....like a babu....I never sleep anymore.  my world is completely fucked.  I have to find a doc that understands the stupid natrue of my job and all the layers of ptsd to give me something to help me sleep.  I don't want anything else just to be able to sleep like a normal person a couple of nights a week.  People that don't do this job have no idea how black and heavy it turns ones soul.