The lasts and making room for the new firsts

I'm lying here with tears in my eyes. My emotions are mixed. I feel so raw with my soul exposed for all to see. My gentle nature has won out for tonight. My ability to control my emotions has left me for now. This begins a week of last things. My home I had for over 23 years is to be someone else's home. I want to leave here very much. But I also know I am leaving some part of myself in this place. Each last thing I do here gets me closer to a new life. But part of the lasts will be leaving my hometown. I've lived here for fifty four years. That's all of my life. Yes part of me is in this town as well. 
So now it is time to embrace these changes. It is what I need to do. Happiness is only attained through the acceptance of change. Happiness is what I want so very very much. The new firsts will start soon enough. I am not alone in this. I have the love of a wonderful family along with that of precious friends. I have a person in my life that's willing to share the new things with me. Her willingness to do that is enough in and of itself to love her. But thankfully there's many more reasons to love her as well. Now the crying has stopped. I can rest through what remains of this night knowing I will be alright.
Lord I pray for more than just my own happiness. I humbly ask you that through these changes I become more and more the person you have always wished me to become. When you call me I will come. Please let my love for you be of use to others. I know I still have choices. I choose you over all others. Thank you for watching over me.
AMEN