The journey continues

I can say things ARE better but I still have up and down days. Just when I tell myself I'm good, I've got this I find a pitfall that reflects just how far I still have to go. I struggle between being a stay at home couch potato/hermit and wanting to go out make friends and be around humans I don't work with. At home its just the dogs and horses and I. I'm starting to talk to them like Wilson on Castaway LOL I have very few friends since most of my friends were mutual between the two of us and they have most all backed away from me. I'm trying to be strong but yes it gets lonely at times