THE HORRIBLE FACE

Today I feel horrible. Summer school is over YAY! It was pretty easy but I didn't get a break because we had to start immediately after school was out. Getting so far in the recent IVF process was great but then to have it cancelled again was CRAZINESS. I am having a hard time seeing the following
*pregnant people
*mommies and babies
*anyone talking to me about babies
My husband has a daughter, I feel such jeolousy and envy of all mommies let along having to see my husband and stepdaughter interact. This weekend visit is tremedously hard on me!! I HATE FEELING THE FEELINGS BUT SOMETIMES YOU CAN"T HELP IT! I have stayed strong but today I feel weak. I know the upside of everything but today I don't want to hear it! I am mad, angry, hurt and that's just that!

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'m sorry you are having such a difficult time, but I completely understand. I feel like I see pregnant women everywhere and it seems like they have come out of the woodwork just this week alone. I just got confirmation today that a co-worker is pregnant and it is killing me inside. Once everyone knows, I will have to hear everyone get so excited when it should have been me in her shoes.
I hope things get better for you soon!
deleted_user
deleted_user

sorry that your feeling like this... Its so hard to see everyone happy and were not.. i just try and think that one day we will be happy... sending you happy thoughts..
deleted_user
deleted_user

It\'s ok to feel this way! Let it out! Tomorrow is a new day and you can try and feel better then.
duane
duane

Let it out. You need to vent somewhere where you feel safe. Do it here! we do not judge. Just know that you have support and prayers. Sending you lots of hugs.
browngurl30
browngurl30

thanks ladies, my friend has been house sitting at this beautiful house and invited me over to chill by the pool and it made me feel so much better
deleted_user
deleted_user

so sorry that you are feeling that way but glad to hear that relaxing by the pool helped. you are lucky to have a friend like that. I feel like my friends aren\'t supporting me. They don\'t call me or anything. They ALL have 2 or 3 kids and do not have a clue as to how i am feeling or what I am going through. Hope you continue to have a good weekend
deleted_user
deleted_user

Hey Sis, I\'m so sorry that this cycle ended up a bust. You are allowed all of your feelings. I\'m here if you want to vent.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Girl I wish you had told me! I haven\'t been on here in forever and I hadn\'t heard from you so i thought I\'d better check up on you. I\'m so sorry babe! I\'m in Md till aug 12 but we can get together when I come home. Miss you! Hang tough babe... you can do this!!!! ~ manda