The holidays
I am officially on vacation until January 5th and boy oh boy do I need it. Work has been rough for weeks on end. The kids have been off the chain crazy and troublesome. I have not been sleeping great and not feeling 100%. I Need this break bigtime.
My energy level is low and I am hoping and praying that the time off restores me. I am heading to my parent's house early next week with my 3 crazy animals. I have however done NO shopping in part due to lack of funds. I can manage a few gifts and that is all.
Stress over money and my ex are contributing. He has been back in touch again, pretty often. He says he just enjoys my company, even though it is clear that living together again is not going to happen. I just have a need to understand the man I guess.
I have been advised by so many people that I should stay away from him. But I am going to keep my own counsel on this and probably see him tomorrow over dinner or a dog walk. I think he has regrets over this divorce and had a wakeup call about it. I want to hear what he has to say.... though it will not change my reality.
I guess I am irritated with some people who have never been in my shoes telling me what to do. I know they have my best interest at heart (in their own minds and experiences) but everyone is different.
I am not going to get inimate with him or get that sort of involved at all, and he is not suggesting that. He just wants to talk. And I think it could be a healing process for us and I am willing to try that. If it doesn't work I will stop it.
I can heal on my own.
My energy level is low and I am hoping and praying that the time off restores me. I am heading to my parent's house early next week with my 3 crazy animals. I have however done NO shopping in part due to lack of funds. I can manage a few gifts and that is all.
Stress over money and my ex are contributing. He has been back in touch again, pretty often. He says he just enjoys my company, even though it is clear that living together again is not going to happen. I just have a need to understand the man I guess.
I have been advised by so many people that I should stay away from him. But I am going to keep my own counsel on this and probably see him tomorrow over dinner or a dog walk. I think he has regrets over this divorce and had a wakeup call about it. I want to hear what he has to say.... though it will not change my reality.
I guess I am irritated with some people who have never been in my shoes telling me what to do. I know they have my best interest at heart (in their own minds and experiences) but everyone is different.
I am not going to get inimate with him or get that sort of involved at all, and he is not suggesting that. He just wants to talk. And I think it could be a healing process for us and I am willing to try that. If it doesn't work I will stop it.
I can heal on my own.
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There ya go! Just do what you need to Amy. Wishing you good luck and finding some peace :)
Coop
Thank you Coop. I appreciate your support.
I hope you and your lovely daughter have a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
xoxo:)
I get irritated with people and their unsolicited advice, too. Not getting intimate sounds like a good boundary. Good luck and I hope you have a relaxing vacation.
Well I fell off the wagon with him today, and I am not talking about drinking.
I broke all my rules and I will pay for it as necessary. We spent most of the day and night together, shopping, eating and just hanging out together like we used to be. I must be batshit crazy to take this risk but I am going to take it. I won\'t see him over the holidays at all and that\'s fine, if have a ton of other friends to be with and family. He wants to take me out to breakfast at our favorite diner tomorrow morning and I am going to let him do that.
We have a lot more talking to do. I will always be his friend, even from afar, but maybe there is a relationship than can be salvaged. I dunno.
Amy, please be strong. Just remember to set boundaries. You have come so far and I would hate to see you hurt again. Enjoy your time off and please be careful. Happy Holidays!