The Hots

I guess I must be starting to move forward because today I have "the hots" for my roommate in a serious kind of way. I know he cares about me, but he is just trying to wait until I am ready. He has been my rock through all of the divorce angst and slways gave me everything I needed or asked from him. That just makes me want him even more. He is so much not the same kind of man that my ex was. We also work together in an organization that deals with abused, abandoned, and neglected children. When I see the way he is with the children, I am soooo attracted to him. We both want to be foster parents and adopt soon whether with someone or alone. In so many ways, I feel like he might actually be my soulmate... We finally had a serious talk about all of this sexual tension tonight. I think that he is afraid that he will somehow disappoint me, but I believe that my feelings are so strong for him that we can work out any issues in that department. I think that I keep struggling with the divorce because my ex and I had a really good sex life, and I know that he is still attracted to me when he sees me. I guess I just keep falling back to what is comfortable. At least, I have gotten a couple of light kisses on the lips this evening. That makes me feel way more positive that this might be going in the positive direction.