The Hits Keep Comin, but I'm Doing Better
So, last night my sister's boyfriend's truck was repo'd, definitely a new experience for me. He's so used to the women in his life (ie: his mother) taking care of him that he hasn't bothered paying on the truck in months and now is all upset that it's been taken away. This is really bad for me stress wise. I was just getting used to having my own car and not having to taxi everyone around all the time. It's going to make my school schedule even more tight and I can't afford to have too much stress or I'll break down. On a positive note, I had a GREAT session with my counsellor on Thursday and she's going to work with SDS at the university and make sure I get an Accomodations letter. That's one less thing to worry about. Also, I've been okay with going into the brit lit online space. I've posted a few times. Not to the old threads yet, but the current ones. I think that's enough for me right now. If I can go back and finish the old ones, great, if not I'm going to *try* to not stress about it. With school the OCD has been on overdrive, my counsellor is working with me to break up the cycles which is awesome. I always feel really hopeful after seeing her. I'm trying to get prepped for the coming week by Monday morning, so I'm not stressing about racing to finish my weekly assignments against the clock. I've organised all my binders and started my readings (I have a lot left to go), but I feel ok about things right now and that's all I can ask for. One step, one day at a time. Oh, and when I logged on I had a hug from Chelle, that made me feel SO good. I love that I'm not so alone anymore. I feel like I'm becoming part of a community again. It may take me awhile to really get in there with the discussions, but just being in this space makes me feel supported and stronger for not being the only one fighting to do things mundane people think of as "normal". So the plan for tonight-watch a BBC production of last week's Brit Lit book and finish the intro for this week's Brit Lit book, take my meds and go to bed. I feel better than ok, not good yet, but better. I sent Chelle a hugback, she has no idea how much that small effort lifted me today and I'm thankful for her presence. So wherever you are tonight ZanyBeeper, I hope the universe is smiling on you and blessing you, because today you've been a blessing to me.