the good and the bad

We did have a nice Christmas dinner , everyone helped and was kind and caring toward each other.I wish  our daughter would have stayed. She doesnt like my sisters and I really pray she would forgive them and move on as she is harming herself in ways..but in ways she tells me that she is protecting herself from negativity.I really am not sure how to think about that, as scripturally, I remember Guard you heart..and i know I definately havent done enough of that.
Physically this is excruciating..first i have extreme knee pain..barely walking or sleeping..then a horrible flu and now the knee pain and HIVES all over my feet, hands and knees. I feel so sick and i have many commitments to work..also M and I would like to do something together over the holidays.  He will drive me to  see the doctor this morning..and I hope I dont have to wait long.The last time I was at that clinic ,,I was there for 6 hours..I just dont have the energy.