The first step
Today is the first step for the rest of my life. My 35 year old husband, who I have been with for 15 years, decided to start an online affair with a 21 year old girl that he met in a poker chatroom. This girl has now become the most important thing in his life. More important than me or our children.
During the time that he started this affair, he was injured and not working. He put off not going back to work for two months saying he was in too much pain, but now I see that he did it to maintain this affair while I worked and took care of our children.
Because of him not working I am -$800 in my bank, and no money for food, gas, etc. I have a 13 year old son and a 7 year old daughter who are devestated. I don't know how I am going to get by with all of our bills, mortgage, etc. And I have no help.
I HATE HIM SO MUCH RIGHT NOW
Not only has he done this, but last January he was arrested for breaking into homes. He was out of work again, pled guilty and had to do ankle monitoring for the entire summer. Yet I stayed by his side, paid the bills and took care of him.
And let's not forget the "one night stand" he had 6 years ago...
When will the pain end? He has said that I'm too fat and that I disgust him. I think he is a terrible human being and I want him to feel pain. He's acting as if all of his wildest dreams are coming true. What about me? What about our kids? Why???
During the time that he started this affair, he was injured and not working. He put off not going back to work for two months saying he was in too much pain, but now I see that he did it to maintain this affair while I worked and took care of our children.
Because of him not working I am -$800 in my bank, and no money for food, gas, etc. I have a 13 year old son and a 7 year old daughter who are devestated. I don't know how I am going to get by with all of our bills, mortgage, etc. And I have no help.
I HATE HIM SO MUCH RIGHT NOW
Not only has he done this, but last January he was arrested for breaking into homes. He was out of work again, pled guilty and had to do ankle monitoring for the entire summer. Yet I stayed by his side, paid the bills and took care of him.
And let's not forget the "one night stand" he had 6 years ago...
When will the pain end? He has said that I'm too fat and that I disgust him. I think he is a terrible human being and I want him to feel pain. He's acting as if all of his wildest dreams are coming true. What about me? What about our kids? Why???
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I don\'t know if they have this in Alaska, but a lot of areas have \"211 for help\". They\'ll help you with utilities and groceries.
There are some great \'groups\' here that can advise you better than I .. reach out to them, I know they can help..
love, respect and prayers for you my new friend
Thanks for the suggestions. It\'s so hard to focus on what I need to do with the amount of pain my heart is feeling. I don\'t know how to start to heal...