The first snow of the year

The snow is falling and I am looking out the window and it utterly bothers me.I hate snow because it means cold weather and I have to hibernate and not go outside as often as i would like. In the winter I have the worst problems with my moods. No matter how much medicine I am on it makes no difference. Iam in the most dark place because there is no sun and I am just all full of anxiety and depression. Plus there are the holidays. Since mom and dad aren't here anymore the holidays have no meaning to them like they once did. I miss them both so much and it is so hard for me around the holidays because I just am not into them as much as I was before. I just wish I could sleep throughtthe winter andthe holidays.