The First's are Now Beginning
Good morning to all my friends on DS. You have given me so much encouragement these past few weeks. I am heading into my First's. I hear those are some hard days.
Friday is my husband's birthday and Monday is mine, we always heard from Kenny but this year we won't. This will be the first of many first to come. I don't know how I will feel that day. I some want to just take pills and sleep the day away, but that would not be good for my other kids. They will call. And I sure do not want to miss their calls. Bad enough that my oldest son can't at least text me from Heaven. Since God knows the future, one thing He should had done was have had it where our children could text us. My son would text rather than call most of the time. During the time he was in the hospital, his wife and I kept in contact by text all day, all night to update Ken's conditions. Before Ken lost his ability to talk or form his words last Feb he was telling me that I should change my phone plan for unlimited text.
Finally, I did but it was after he could not text anymore. But he knew it would save his mom some money. He was always looking out for me trying to save money. The month before I changed my phone plan I had overage of my text to his wife of S$75.00 now I don't but like his wife said when we look at the phone bill now there are very few text listed. But it was a good plan and I have Ken to think for that.
Ken always came up with new things and soon as we would go visit him, he would show me his new thing he had found. He would start out by saying we got something new and when you see it your gonna want one. He was right on that. I would always like the new product and I would buy it. I can only remember one thing that I never bought. It was some kind of cooker. My son was always thinking of me that was so sweet of him.
Since we had lived in different states after he got married, I am so thankful that I was able to not work and to visit him often. I actually saw him more than I do the kids that live close by. We have all the holidays here together. That was one thing we didn't have with Ken, the holidays. He never came back home for them. But I always went to see them after the holidays.
We always had good time together when we got to visit. He always would search out new places to eat and be so excited to take me there, I can hear him now say, Mom, I found this new place to eat and your gonna love it and I did. I loved all the places he would find before we went to visit.
So this weekend will be the first things since he went to Heaven. I will get through them but I know I will be said. But I know if he could he would tell me Happy Birthday Monday. That I could count on for sure.
Love you Kenny, mom
Sandi
Friday is my husband's birthday and Monday is mine, we always heard from Kenny but this year we won't. This will be the first of many first to come. I don't know how I will feel that day. I some want to just take pills and sleep the day away, but that would not be good for my other kids. They will call. And I sure do not want to miss their calls. Bad enough that my oldest son can't at least text me from Heaven. Since God knows the future, one thing He should had done was have had it where our children could text us. My son would text rather than call most of the time. During the time he was in the hospital, his wife and I kept in contact by text all day, all night to update Ken's conditions. Before Ken lost his ability to talk or form his words last Feb he was telling me that I should change my phone plan for unlimited text.
Finally, I did but it was after he could not text anymore. But he knew it would save his mom some money. He was always looking out for me trying to save money. The month before I changed my phone plan I had overage of my text to his wife of S$75.00 now I don't but like his wife said when we look at the phone bill now there are very few text listed. But it was a good plan and I have Ken to think for that.
Ken always came up with new things and soon as we would go visit him, he would show me his new thing he had found. He would start out by saying we got something new and when you see it your gonna want one. He was right on that. I would always like the new product and I would buy it. I can only remember one thing that I never bought. It was some kind of cooker. My son was always thinking of me that was so sweet of him.
Since we had lived in different states after he got married, I am so thankful that I was able to not work and to visit him often. I actually saw him more than I do the kids that live close by. We have all the holidays here together. That was one thing we didn't have with Ken, the holidays. He never came back home for them. But I always went to see them after the holidays.
We always had good time together when we got to visit. He always would search out new places to eat and be so excited to take me there, I can hear him now say, Mom, I found this new place to eat and your gonna love it and I did. I loved all the places he would find before we went to visit.
So this weekend will be the first things since he went to Heaven. I will get through them but I know I will be said. But I know if he could he would tell me Happy Birthday Monday. That I could count on for sure.
Love you Kenny, mom
Sandi
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