The Fight Part .1

               The Fight Part .1 By:Scotty B. 8\29\2018

I struggle with me demons, trying to get me to use,

As much as i have suffered, even all the mental abuse.

My body wants for one thing, that i cant seem to get,

Although with all the help nothing seems to break through.

I try to fight my demons, but cant seem to win,

When i think im back on top, Here they come like the wind.

I suffer with many things, but one seems to control,

my mind and body like the tumbler weed, emotions seem to explode.

I may hurt people in my life, although mainly with just words,

I know deap down in side it has got to really hurt.

I want change, I want action, But nothing seems to give,

The more and more I try, at the end i really dont want to live.

So many words i have to say, just to scared to even speak,

The thoughts others might have just seem to leak.

A long long raod this short tired life has seen,

Athough he seems emotionless,

He has alot of love to give. 

Been done so wrong by alot of people in my life all these years,

Its made me become more and more just like them.

I want to show my true feelings at times,

But thats when these demons loves to a fight,

Causing memories of my past all through out the nite.

They take control and make me do things that i really cant say,

Even make me hold the pain thats not ment to stay.

Theres alot more to add but just to scared to say,

Maybe they'll be a part 2 soon some day.