The end is near

I haven't written much as I haven't been working since the 15th and am rarely at a computer now...and writing on my phone is a little hard.

But' I'm now over 38w and am scheduled to be induced at the end of this week. I can't believe I'm at this point. I get so emotional when I think about meeting our baby. I never thought this day would come after 5 years of trying. I was/still am hoping that she would come on her own, but I'm not showing any signs of real labor....some little things though.

I am scared of labor. I'm afraid of losing Grace at the end. I'm afraid of something happening to me...I'm afraid of not being physically strong enough. I'm nervous about the pain. I've never spent the night in the hospital. My ob said I would most likely need internal monitoring--which means I'd be bed bound during labor. I'm just trying to keep the end result of an amazing baby in mind and not think of the labor part :-)

a piece of good news though. My MIL is insisting on being at the hospital for the birth (not in the room or anything). The only issue is that she lives 6 hours away--house guests was not something I wanted for my first days as a mom. My husband was trying to explain that it would make more sense to come a couple weeks later, but she wasn't having it. Well, she said this weekend that they are getting a hotel!! What a blessing :-)

well, we are almost there...it's emotionally overwhelming. God's grace and goodness is too much for this heart to take.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Yay! Cannot wait for your wailing little bundle to join you in your arms!
babydini
babydini

So exciting! I\'ve been wondering how you were doing and was afraid I\'d missed a post. Anyway, I think most of us were worried as you are about all the possibilities of what could happen. I was induced with mine and had an internal monitor for the last two (can\'t remember if I did with the first!). You will get through it!! Praying for you as you go through this next step - it is an amazing one! Soon you\'ll be holding your own precious child!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user

HUGS and Prayers for you and baby Grace. Its so wonderful!!! She\'ll soon be here!!
deleted_user
deleted_user

Goodness! The end of this week! I\'m so excited for you.... labor always worries me when I get that close - even though I\'ve done it 3 times already. But the day of, it seems those worries go away, as more important things are on my mind. She\'ll be here so soon and in your arms! Good luck and I pray your delivery is nice and quick for you! :)
truststhelord
truststhelord

Thanks for all of the kind words :-). It means
so much to me to know that ladies I\'ve never
met care about me and my baby :-)
ardua
ardua

praying for you and baby.