The end is near
I haven't written much as I haven't been working since the 15th and am rarely at a computer now...and writing on my phone is a little hard.
But' I'm now over 38w and am scheduled to be induced at the end of this week. I can't believe I'm at this point. I get so emotional when I think about meeting our baby. I never thought this day would come after 5 years of trying. I was/still am hoping that she would come on her own, but I'm not showing any signs of real labor....some little things though.
I am scared of labor. I'm afraid of losing Grace at the end. I'm afraid of something happening to me...I'm afraid of not being physically strong enough. I'm nervous about the pain. I've never spent the night in the hospital. My ob said I would most likely need internal monitoring--which means I'd be bed bound during labor. I'm just trying to keep the end result of an amazing baby in mind and not think of the labor part :-)
a piece of good news though. My MIL is insisting on being at the hospital for the birth (not in the room or anything). The only issue is that she lives 6 hours away--house guests was not something I wanted for my first days as a mom. My husband was trying to explain that it would make more sense to come a couple weeks later, but she wasn't having it. Well, she said this weekend that they are getting a hotel!! What a blessing :-)
well, we are almost there...it's emotionally overwhelming. God's grace and goodness is too much for this heart to take.
But' I'm now over 38w and am scheduled to be induced at the end of this week. I can't believe I'm at this point. I get so emotional when I think about meeting our baby. I never thought this day would come after 5 years of trying. I was/still am hoping that she would come on her own, but I'm not showing any signs of real labor....some little things though.
I am scared of labor. I'm afraid of losing Grace at the end. I'm afraid of something happening to me...I'm afraid of not being physically strong enough. I'm nervous about the pain. I've never spent the night in the hospital. My ob said I would most likely need internal monitoring--which means I'd be bed bound during labor. I'm just trying to keep the end result of an amazing baby in mind and not think of the labor part :-)
a piece of good news though. My MIL is insisting on being at the hospital for the birth (not in the room or anything). The only issue is that she lives 6 hours away--house guests was not something I wanted for my first days as a mom. My husband was trying to explain that it would make more sense to come a couple weeks later, but she wasn't having it. Well, she said this weekend that they are getting a hotel!! What a blessing :-)
well, we are almost there...it's emotionally overwhelming. God's grace and goodness is too much for this heart to take.
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